9/24-9/28 2K12'

This week went by fast *___* Im so excites for Monday ^___^ Retreaat ;3 Finally ;3 So starting from the begining . A week ago, my new baby cousin was born <3 Lololol she cute ~ i was sooo happy this week doe . Uhhm imma talk about all the exams i took ! So First is my ELA exam . My score was 48/59 So thats a B -.- Uggh i still did good dooe . Im proud i got atleast a B . Because i didnt even understand anything what we were doing in ELA but i still got a good grade;3 lol oh yeaah . Now my Science test. Well, i took it today. And it wasnt hard at all !!! But i didnt get a grade yet -.- baaah , uhhm my Social Studoes exam . Eeeeeer, 60/100 .... Thats a D ... Well this proves i hate Social Studies, but overall i have a C in that class -.- Uhhhm my math ... Ahhh that wasnt soo good either .Uhm now Period 6 (; Gaah, well we practices sooo much for the retreat talent show !! Hopefully we dont lose and scrub toilets -.- We worked really hard ! So this week was more of exams and practicing d; I think my worst period of this week was ELA i had an F for like a day, but i was soooo pissed i bumped it up real fast and now its a C ;3 Cause im cool liiihdat ' LOL Uhhm my best period was probably Avid ;p We had a sub today dooe ~ she so erking -.- lol just saying . uhhhhm idunno what elae to say -.-

OH today . No direction performed and theyre officially my new favorite band <3 Haha , Imma say a comment about each (; Well let me start off with Nicki . HE DIDNT KNOW A SINGLE WORD OR PART IN THAT SONG but he still had fun ;p lol uhm OH Bretman was ALL OUT . I think Bret had too much fun (x Uhm Nic was all out too, he had his arms flying everywhere xD Then kevin (hulk) omgomgogmomg . His part was the best (x he sold it BAHAHAH . Cant wait for next quarter i wonder what were gonna do ;p

My Job . So this week i was ID's back to my very first job ;p IDs has less freedom, well the fun thing is that we were able to eat Kimcheee and all that good stuff xD but what i hated was that, we couldnt really walk around A101 even if were still in the room. We just had to stay by the Computer . I mean, if we leave its not like someones gonna rape the computer right ?! Lol jkjk. But yeah . ID has kess freedom, even dooe its the easiest job out of all the others . I would honestly say Music and TV was my favorite Jobs . Music and TV were my favorite because its two things i love . Music && Being on TV (x bwuaha sad thing is i only got on TV once . Because i got on probation before i could even go on again -.- haawh . Well i dont know if this is long enough . But im ending it here ;3 Bye Bloggers ~ See you on Monday ^__^

My First Quarter (;

Wanna know how my 1st Quarter went ? okaay then ;p

So, my first quarter here in Ilima didnt turn out so well . Why ? Mostly because of like all the struggles i went through ~ Yeah, this probably sounds stupid but its truuue ! Let meeeee tell you about the " Struggles " i had . First is Leadership, i think this was stressing me out because of my AR . I honestly love to read but not because i have to, its for fun . But AR, I get " forced " and i felt really stupid, because the first book i read i only read like 2 Pages and i was stupid enough to take the test and get 2/10 . Yeah yeah , like a true voyager . Okok NO lol . But, when i tried the next time, i still got a bad score ! So then i had a mini talk woth Mr.Ing ... And he boosted up my motovation for myself . After the talk i read 2-3 books and i got all 100% i was actually proud of myself, because i felt accomplished . But i wasnt even done with my AR !!! So i kept reading and reading and reading and reading . Till after 1 Week, i reaches my goal ^___^ I was sooooo happy ;p I finally reached 100% ! I hugged Errlyn soo tight i nearly killed her ;3 So then, I happily colored my AR Chart . Lolk this was my first struggle . Cant wait till next quarter -.- 

Now my next struggle -.- My friends . 

Well . First of all, all the rumors . People were calling me fake, and ugly . And that brought me down . My self esteem dropped , and i got insecure . So i guess the day i found out people were speeading rumors about me , i was quiet for like a whole week . And not only did this happen to me once, but more . It was like 2 times every week for 3 Months i had to shut up, and feel insecure about myself . But i guess i kept smiling and got happier eventually . Another thing was .... Taking me for granted . I know, losing and friends taking you for granted is normal and this is suppose to happen , but the friend i lost and that took me for granted were once soooo close to me ! But they f***ked up their chance and decided to use me and other stuff . I was mad, im not that kind of person who would cry over friends or boys but knowing someone who was once so close to you then next thing they decide to walk out of your life, dosent that hurt ? Dosent it !?!?!? This stopped me because i really care about my friends , and im that person who puts others happiness before mine . Unless i really hate you . LOLOLOL but yeah, so i couldnt think straight because i kept thinking about why someone who USED to be my bestfriend decided to take advantage of me . Chaaange le' subject ;3 

Next Struggle ;p Mkays, so the next one . Family . Imma be kinda emotional on this one .. So, get your tissues ready ;3 Jkjk its not gonna be that emotional . Whaaaale, first of all. My step dad , he dosent support me . No one in my family supports me . Cause they dont care . So i get upset , whenever people motovate me, i actually try my best to everything i do . But when i get no motovation and i get put down, then chances are im not gonna try . I will give up ! And ive done this, a billion times . But i always end up getting back up, and trying again (; Again to my step dad, hea sick. Ever since school started hes had about 4 surgeries so far . And although i hate him, and hes mean to me, but i still care so much, i dont wanna lose anyone in my family anymore . Its already falling apart, i dont wanna lose, another one . While im gone for the retreat, hea having another surgery . In the past, most of my family members died because of cancer and having too many surgeries . Im twice as worried doe, im worried of my grandma and grandpa too, theyre both sick and i just dont want anything to happen to them </3 

Kay thats it . I THINK . Now, im gonna talk about the good things ;3 So my first impression of Leadership was it was easy, until the middle of the quarter when my group leader started getting more serious . Now, i dont blame her for being mean and serious but when she became more serious, i thought that its time to get serious to.  But im gonna talk about my first impression of my group leader first ;p So, at my interview .. Errlyn decided to be " mean " to me . The others were nice dooe ;3 After hearing i got accepted into Leadership, i was hoping to have Megan as my group leader because i was closer to her. But after i got Errlyn as my group leader, i was actually disappointed because i knew already she didnt like me . But now that we got closer, were all good . Well from my point of view it is, idont know about her xD Bwuahahhahaha jk ;p Well, ive always thought Errlyn wasnt "proud" of me, because of my academics .. Lalalalalala okok uhm now my group . PERIOD 6YNESS ;3 Imma make a " thaang " about each of them . So dirat, ill start with Laila (; This waaan' is my bestfriendforlyyyfe <3 I think we got closer now that were both in leadership, but we got into more fights too . Bleh, i hope its not like this all the time -,- Lolk now uhm Trixaaaay ;) my singing buddie ;3 Lol so i think Trixaay should be alittle more out going , but i think Trixie is the more nice and chill one in the group <3 Uhhm Bretman (x Lolk Bretman is like my big brother ;p Whenever youre sad, he can turn everything exciting and happy xD Bret is like the funniest person ebbbber !!! LOL Uhhh Savannah , i think Savannah  is too shy ! I mean, isnt Leadership suppose to help you become more like a Leader . But i would say shes become more open now ^__^ Laast is Daisy . K thats it ;3 Jkjk Daisy is le' ELA partner xD bwuaha i dunno dooe ~ Daisy is the Unique one . Uhm thaaats it i think . 

Last year back in Holomua is really different . Im having different grades, i hang out with different people, and more . Back in Holomua, i was close to my friends and there was DRAMA FREE ! I miss my friends i use to hang out with D; They were the ones i grew up with yeno ? Well, i hang out with different people now . More like Kaimiloa and Pohakea people .. But theres a big difference between Holomua and Kaimiloas actions and attitude and Holomua and Pohakeas attitide and actions . Lol big difference xD I think Pohakea is kinda ghetto dooe ~ theyre mean to me, but i still hang out with them ;3 Uhhm Kaimiloa is okay ;p but i was close to about 8 of them before school even started theyre coool , i guess . Oh uhm, now that im in Intermidiate , the work is harder and theres twice as more than Elementary , i dont know anymoooore dooe ~ that means risking alot of time finishing it . Gaah -.- Omg, im running out of things to say LOL i think imma end this soooon . Oh i cant wait for the retreat ^___^ I hope everything turns out good (; Oh and i dont wanna go Ghost Hunting D; im totally gonna cry ~ LOL . ooooooh, i wanna talk about how i ended my quarter today . So this morning my new favorite band " No Direction " AKA; Bretman, Nicki, Nic, Kevin . Performed xDD LOL this madey day ;3 seeing all of them have so much fun ^__^ Well, byeeeee First Quarter . Hello Second Quarter . 

Look at this <3 Kiera Exialei <3

Meeeet Kiera Exialei <3 Isnt she adorable *---* Damn, i wish i was this cute xD On September 23 2012 @ 9:59AM this little angel became part of the world <3 && my life <3 I know it may seem like in making this a big deal . But out of my whole LIFE this is the first new born baby ive seen, all my other baby cousins were different . i didnt see them after they were born but this angel <3 I did . I cant believe have a new cousin *---* She too OMGOMOMG <3 Well, we gave her a photoshoot . lol she is too adorable

9.17-9.21 (;

Haaaay bloggers (; Sorry this is late . i was buusssy (x ish . okay so like today is September 23 . and i just wanna say that i have a new cousin ;3 Her name is Kiera Exia Lei <3 isnt she beaautiful ? Well , im so happy for my Auntie . She made a wonderful baby <3 At about 9:59AM ;') Its funny cause one of my Aunties were born on April 23 and the other is June 23 . im July 23 . Now Kiera is on September 23 . its all 23 (x lol we cool, we cool ;p well thats was my day . now lets rewind a bit . Yesterday, on Saturday . I got to spend time with Tierra & Liza (; It was supppper fun ;p We went to Baskin Robins, and McDonalds . Then we watched scary movies for the whole day . Then me and Liza went to a party and at that moment soemthing happened between us .. but its okay now i guess ...... Uhm leets see . Oh i learnes how to do le' yearbook thingy && i have a really good feeling about this ;D Me Trixie and Daisy are actually doing pretty good i guess . uhm i guess thats it for today (;

September 10-14 2K12'

WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS (x

Haaaay Buh Buh Buh Bloggers ^__^ so like this week started off ugly (x On Monday and Tuesday it was like full on DRAMA . Ish , then on Wednesday everything kind of got back to normal . Then THURSDAY . LOL this ones funny . So on Thursday i found out my friends were talking about me behind my back . And yeah i usually dont gove a fudge what people say but when this person said it . It wasnt one word , this person called me more than a word . And it hurt me the most because now this is what people know me as and because all of this isnt true . Dontcha' think that hurts ? When someone calls you several kinds of names and next thing you know thats what other peoples impression is ? Hah, whatever . Well yesterday . On Friday Friday ! I was strong and happy ^__^ i love when i see my friend smiling because i can make them laugh cause i know they hate seeing me sad -.- whaaale, guess whats happening right after this blog ? Imma go take a shower and and do my thaaaangs and go to Palace with my friends . LOL i hope i dont fall >.< i havent been there in like a month ! Oh and then after imma go eat dinner with le' parents ;p then Tomorrow im going to Lanis birthday partaay at the pool . I hope i dont get black .. Oh wait im already black . LOL nah , im not BLACK as in black black i just mean my skin color . Lol okokok

Ohemgeeeees, okay so like this National whatevers stuff is getting out of hand . So yesterday i heard that Monday is National Kiss Day . OH NAYE xD who daaa haaail would make a day like that !!!? Lol maake me giggly *___* 

OPPA GANGNAM STYLE xD bwuhah yesterday morning was fun . Errone was like Screaming like they own thee place x) oooh then like it rained after . And then people were being stooopid and going under the shade . Jk , but its FRIDAY . Who wants to end their Friday not in the rain xD hahaha okok bye . 

This Week && Welcome Social

Heey Bloggeers (x GUESS WHAT !? Im off of Probation ! Heeeey HOOOOOO Heeeeey HOOOO ^____^ lol okok. This Weeek i was doing my best to finish my AR test . I took about 8 test to reach exactly 50% ! And i got it ^__^ i was so hapy i ran to Errlynlynlynlyn that i nearly choked that squirrel ;p Waaaaale, i finished on time to work at Welcome Social ☺ Ohyeaah SCORE ;3 bwuaha . Oh uhm during Welcome Social i had to do the Movies with Heighleeeee, bleh on like the first 20 minoootes it was so sad .. No one came, so we had like a " Bonding Time " then Trixaay & Daaisy came in and ruined the fun ;3 if yoou know what i mean xD juust kidding . Okaaaye so like when my shift was over i had my freedom ^__^ ohh i went in the Photobooth first with my friend Cathleen & Mr. Barayuga (x he ruined the first picture -,- waah oh wells . I had alot of fun . Then we had the Dance Contest and stuff ... We shall fast forward ;3 After all the cleaning while everyone was getting picked upi had no ride along with Savannah . So Mr. ing gave us a ride . HAHA you wont believe how weird our convo was . When we got in i was practicing how to write in cursive in the air and Mr Ing thought i was a wizard and casting a spell, so he slapped my hand down;( pooop for me 😒 lol okokok the other convos were weird and stuff .. Oh then it started raining yeah that was cool .

CROSS COUNTRY
WoootWooot ! Guess what place i got in 19th -,- aagh . Out of the school i had 2nd Place dooe ~ so for Cross Country it was sooo tiring ! You wont even believe ! Mkaays so we had to run all the way around Nanakuli HighSchool. Ohmy GONZALA Ewa Makai was so daamn fast ! Almost all of them were in the front the whole time ! Ugh, i started walking behind the building ;( i knoow sad right ? But i started running again then before i entered the gates going back to the track field i had a MAJOR Cramp ! I was moaning xD LOL but it really really hurt me ! && then when i was on the track field i started sprinting, when i crossed the finished i was soo dozzy i almost collapsed. I feel so stupid cause then i was writing on the table while writing my name and stuff on the paper.. Oh then like when i crossed the finish line i didnt know i had to get a number from this lady so i passed her and this other girl got 18th place and i got 19 when i shouldve got 18 cause i passsed her but yeah so fuugly . Oh what a coincidence !? Me and Bretneey had the same place number xD LOL hees my brother if you guys didnt knoow ~

When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place '

URL ; http://www.boardofwisdom.com/default.asp?topic=1005&listname=Inspirational

This is my quote , "

When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place " 

This is my favorite quote that i always follow because this shows not to give up in life . Theres always life ahead of you and people tend to give up alot . Okay im the type of person who loves to see others smile even when im not. I always put my friends happiness before mines . Okay, so why do i follow this ? Because i like to try out alot of things and im very risky .. But at times i find myself giving up .. Mostly from school , i always give up when it comes to school and not only by work and all , its with friends . Most of my friends are competitive and i am too. But like i said.. I give up easily . When i see my friends winning or not giving up and i always see them trying i get put down . But knowing that ive tried for so long makes me try harder. Ill give an example . Singing  I LOVE to sing . But when i hear other people singing i tell myself im the worst singer ever ! Ive been singing ever since i was 3 . Ive tried to be the best singer i could be.. Then i find myself give up , im 12 now . I held on for 9 Whole Years . And i always tend to give up . Im like that .  But yeah this is my favorite quote.. LOL i dont think this made sense . 

PROBATION

Probation

So this week i got put on probation. This was a bad thing but i learned from it .. Well im still learning cause im still on probation ... Honestly, im not trying too hard in my subjects. But i will its just theres something thats stoppign me. Being on probation made me feel left out and made me feel like im not part of the leadership group anymore .. Everytime i try to help i always tell myself to stop cause when i help thats almost like working right ? This was hard for me because im a person who likes to help alot . Well yesterday, during Period 2 there was a meeting . Mr.Ing showed a video of his first group of Leadership students . The quote that has to always be followed is " What goes for 1 goes for all " You guys should know what it means . When one person does something wrong and you get the discipine.. Everyone gets it too . So think about teamwork . You have to work together . Notice how people are on Probation ? Thats not teamwork cause whatever group youre working in you cant help . And when theres mot much people working you cant get anything done . This is what im learning from . I trying really hard to raise my grades ... Im super disappointed in myself . And i know Mr.Ing && Errlyn are too , sorry for not making you guys proud . But im REALLY  trying . ok..

Last Week Of August

Goodbye August 

Hello September (; 

So this week was actually bad . Why ? Cause of AR && Progress Reports . Im actually disappointed in my self. I know my Group Leader is . On my Progress Reports i got 2 D's . I have a feeling alot of the others are stressing about their Progress Report . I know i am . Last night i was procrastinating (x i did my Math , i did my Avid and i did everything ! Yesterday i went to my classes and asked them for extra work -.- it was worth it. 

Okaay now my AR. It seems like im not taking this seriously . I am . I LOVE to read, but there something thats on my mind that makes me not focus or concentrate . But i promise there will be an improvment ..  But i have tried taking like 4 Test . I didnt pass . Ugh, i cant believe something so little made me stress that i cant even concentrate in school D; 

I hope this month will be better, i really wanna make my parents proud of me for once ..