My First Quarter (;

Wanna know how my 1st Quarter went ? okaay then ;p

So, my first quarter here in Ilima didnt turn out so well . Why ? Mostly because of like all the struggles i went through ~ Yeah, this probably sounds stupid but its truuue ! Let meeeee tell you about the " Struggles " i had . First is Leadership, i think this was stressing me out because of my AR . I honestly love to read but not because i have to, its for fun . But AR, I get " forced " and i felt really stupid, because the first book i read i only read like 2 Pages and i was stupid enough to take the test and get 2/10 . Yeah yeah , like a true voyager . Okok NO lol . But, when i tried the next time, i still got a bad score ! So then i had a mini talk woth Mr.Ing ... And he boosted up my motovation for myself . After the talk i read 2-3 books and i got all 100% i was actually proud of myself, because i felt accomplished . But i wasnt even done with my AR !!! So i kept reading and reading and reading and reading . Till after 1 Week, i reaches my goal ^___^ I was sooooo happy ;p I finally reached 100% ! I hugged Errlyn soo tight i nearly killed her ;3 So then, I happily colored my AR Chart . Lolk this was my first struggle . Cant wait till next quarter -.- 

Now my next struggle -.- My friends . 

Well . First of all, all the rumors . People were calling me fake, and ugly . And that brought me down . My self esteem dropped , and i got insecure . So i guess the day i found out people were speeading rumors about me , i was quiet for like a whole week . And not only did this happen to me once, but more . It was like 2 times every week for 3 Months i had to shut up, and feel insecure about myself . But i guess i kept smiling and got happier eventually . Another thing was .... Taking me for granted . I know, losing and friends taking you for granted is normal and this is suppose to happen , but the friend i lost and that took me for granted were once soooo close to me ! But they f***ked up their chance and decided to use me and other stuff . I was mad, im not that kind of person who would cry over friends or boys but knowing someone who was once so close to you then next thing they decide to walk out of your life, dosent that hurt ? Dosent it !?!?!? This stopped me because i really care about my friends , and im that person who puts others happiness before mine . Unless i really hate you . LOLOLOL but yeah, so i couldnt think straight because i kept thinking about why someone who USED to be my bestfriend decided to take advantage of me . Chaaange le' subject ;3 

Next Struggle ;p Mkays, so the next one . Family . Imma be kinda emotional on this one .. So, get your tissues ready ;3 Jkjk its not gonna be that emotional . Whaaaale, first of all. My step dad , he dosent support me . No one in my family supports me . Cause they dont care . So i get upset , whenever people motovate me, i actually try my best to everything i do . But when i get no motovation and i get put down, then chances are im not gonna try . I will give up ! And ive done this, a billion times . But i always end up getting back up, and trying again (; Again to my step dad, hea sick. Ever since school started hes had about 4 surgeries so far . And although i hate him, and hes mean to me, but i still care so much, i dont wanna lose anyone in my family anymore . Its already falling apart, i dont wanna lose, another one . While im gone for the retreat, hea having another surgery . In the past, most of my family members died because of cancer and having too many surgeries . Im twice as worried doe, im worried of my grandma and grandpa too, theyre both sick and i just dont want anything to happen to them </3 

Kay thats it . I THINK . Now, im gonna talk about the good things ;3 So my first impression of Leadership was it was easy, until the middle of the quarter when my group leader started getting more serious . Now, i dont blame her for being mean and serious but when she became more serious, i thought that its time to get serious to.  But im gonna talk about my first impression of my group leader first ;p So, at my interview .. Errlyn decided to be " mean " to me . The others were nice dooe ;3 After hearing i got accepted into Leadership, i was hoping to have Megan as my group leader because i was closer to her. But after i got Errlyn as my group leader, i was actually disappointed because i knew already she didnt like me . But now that we got closer, were all good . Well from my point of view it is, idont know about her xD Bwuahahhahaha jk ;p Well, ive always thought Errlyn wasnt "proud" of me, because of my academics .. Lalalalalala okok uhm now my group . PERIOD 6YNESS ;3 Imma make a " thaang " about each of them . So dirat, ill start with Laila (; This waaan' is my bestfriendforlyyyfe <3 I think we got closer now that were both in leadership, but we got into more fights too . Bleh, i hope its not like this all the time -,- Lolk now uhm Trixaaaay ;) my singing buddie ;3 Lol so i think Trixaay should be alittle more out going , but i think Trixie is the more nice and chill one in the group <3 Uhhm Bretman (x Lolk Bretman is like my big brother ;p Whenever youre sad, he can turn everything exciting and happy xD Bret is like the funniest person ebbbber !!! LOL Uhhh Savannah , i think Savannah  is too shy ! I mean, isnt Leadership suppose to help you become more like a Leader . But i would say shes become more open now ^__^ Laast is Daisy . K thats it ;3 Jkjk Daisy is le' ELA partner xD bwuaha i dunno dooe ~ Daisy is the Unique one . Uhm thaaats it i think . 

Last year back in Holomua is really different . Im having different grades, i hang out with different people, and more . Back in Holomua, i was close to my friends and there was DRAMA FREE ! I miss my friends i use to hang out with D; They were the ones i grew up with yeno ? Well, i hang out with different people now . More like Kaimiloa and Pohakea people .. But theres a big difference between Holomua and Kaimiloas actions and attitude and Holomua and Pohakeas attitide and actions . Lol big difference xD I think Pohakea is kinda ghetto dooe ~ theyre mean to me, but i still hang out with them ;3 Uhhm Kaimiloa is okay ;p but i was close to about 8 of them before school even started theyre coool , i guess . Oh uhm, now that im in Intermidiate , the work is harder and theres twice as more than Elementary , i dont know anymoooore dooe ~ that means risking alot of time finishing it . Gaah -.- Omg, im running out of things to say LOL i think imma end this soooon . Oh i cant wait for the retreat ^___^ I hope everything turns out good (; Oh and i dont wanna go Ghost Hunting D; im totally gonna cry ~ LOL . ooooooh, i wanna talk about how i ended my quarter today . So this morning my new favorite band " No Direction " AKA; Bretman, Nicki, Nic, Kevin . Performed xDD LOL this madey day ;3 seeing all of them have so much fun ^__^ Well, byeeeee First Quarter . Hello Second Quarter .