O2L 2.22.14

Hi guys! So this week was pretty terrible bc like i was so bipolar. i was all sad, and happy, then sad, then happy like wtf. plus, there were so many problems that were created this week. Like how we were suppose to do our dress-out days thing, ya we failed bc everyone didnt bring what they was suppose to, then me and asia never finish our banner, etc. I have been so out of it the past 2 weeks, like i havent even finished my AR goal for 2 weeks, and im missing 10 lesson from math, and i have an F in my social studies class and gazaaammmm, im losing mah self. I mean i could honestly say, my ex kinda fucked me upp HAHHAH. like w0w hes kinda the reason why i been sad, but its not normal of me to cry over things like this bc i just dont, like i have never cried over a boy until last weeek wednesday happened. In track, we ran 8 400's and that was such a drag like i was so tired, and it seems like we arent gonna have a track team bc yesterday only 13 people showed up for track like woe. thats a little cray. but maybe because it was a friday, but um ya, i think im getting a little faster but i now i have this nickname which is " k-rex " bc when i run, i run like a t-rex, and since my name starts with a k, its k-rex. LOL. i have no idea why im not improving with
my arm thing. Anyway, today i went to digi tour to go see o2l, and i had the time of my life, like there was a lot of screaming, and dancing, and crying. I cant even believe that it was real.

My highlight of this week has to today, because Sam, Connor, Kian and Ricky made eye contact with me and i just cried knowing that. Then, Lia Johnson touched my hand when she was singing, then  i got a picture with Shelby Waddell!!! Ugh, my life is complete. Words cant even explain how happy i am. Another highlight of my week was friday, so during lunch, me, laila and mr.ing were eating, and then i told mr.ing that there was something on his face, but there really wasnt, and he just kept feeling around for it hahhaha, then i finally told him i was joking(x A lowlight for this week was on thursday when i was sad literally the whole day of  school, like in homeroom i was crying bc i kept over thinking things, then in period 1, i just sat there being sad, and then in period 3, i just kept my head down acting like i was doing work when i wasnt, i was just being sad, then in period 5, i had the guts to pick myelf up and do some things atleast, then afterschool i was sad again HAHAHHAAH. i didnt even go track too(x umm, then when i got home that day i got to go pearls.

Lesson learned, dont let one thing that bothers you take over you, so recently i went through a break up, and i dont usually cry over boys but i did this time, and i let this destroy me.I couldnt even pay attention in class, all i could do was be sad, and idk dude. dont be like that

Does it matter to you?? Or Naw?

So in homeroom this morning, we had a discussion about being responsible, following rules, and delay gratification. Each group had a member go up to explain and talk about each topic. So now ill share what i think about these 3 topics.

Be Responsible
What i think being responsible means is the control of dealing with yourself, this means that you have the authority of your responsibilties, when someone gives you a task, its your responsibilty wether you wanna do it or not. For example, the simple task that was assigned to us 6 months ago, was to finish a yearbook page/spread. It was our responsibilty, we had control of ourselves. For those who arent even half way done, round of applause bc that shows how selfish you are. You had all the time to finish it, and im also referring to myself bc i didnt finish my page either, i mean all i have to do is add captions, but like a lazy selfish bitch i am, i didnt add any captions.

Following Rules
Following rules, is to do what your assigned to do. Most of the people in class obviously didnt do what they was suppose to. If we all just did what we were suppose to do, we wouldnt have all been in this mess that we all created. Its funny because the only time everyone does something is when Mr.Ing gets mad, its easier if we just do things right away so we dont worry bout them later.

Delay Grattification 
This means that when you do good deeds, you will get rewarded later. But it seems to me, that everyone is just waiting for a reward, and everyone is trying to give themselves a reward when they dont deserve it. Everyone dosent deserve it because they havent even made any success yet. The reward we are all giving ourselves is a break, we keep procrastinating that we dont realize how much work we arent doing and missing ... this really reminds me of math, hahaaha.

OK bye.

Its going down! Im yelling TIMBER!!

I hate myself, i mean like ive been ruining everything for myself lately. stupid khrizz. im losing myself again, damn. like my grades are dropping, and im literally losing my friends, and all that. anywayzzz, this week i had tv, and like the main thing we did was " *click* or naaaw. " LOL so ya... idks what to talk about. So ill talk about my peridos. Sooo, period 1, math. So in math, were like hopping around, were doing shapes, were doing ratios, then were doing pythagorean theorem and all, like wth. Period 2, hmmmm. we worked on banner, and i worked on my yb paage, and yeah. period 3, social studes, im like failing dude. im so out of my classes, were doing this think with the westward movement, and im meh, i have too much problems HAHHAHA. Period 4, im acrtually getting a good grade in this class, but uhh were doing an essay and my topic is about bullying, were kinda doing this perusading writing shizzz in class, idk how for explain. Perod 5, pe, whaale we lifted some weights, then on thursday we went out on the track field and i was sweating LOL. and then we played volleyball and it was so funnnnnn. Period 6, were learnign about tides, and eclipse and about the moon phases and all that good stuff. im really disappointed in myself bc i really gave up on a lot of tings, especially myself, so im trying to pick myself back bc i hate this, im getting back to what i was before, and you really dont wanna see that side of me, it wasnt good. yeeezooos. anywayyyy, track has been ok. like im not fast, but i like to run, and so hopefully i get faster and that kind fo shizzz, i bought my track shoes so im happy.

Yay track shoes!

Lowlight for me, was basically the whole week. I ruined everything for me, and me and my " boyfriend " made 11 months on wednesday then we broke up, so whatevsss i guess, idk thats kinda sad i guess, but im not gonna get into detail bc idc, and then  like on friday, things got really jacked up and it made me feel very unwanted in a101, and im losing a lot fo friends, but who cares right? another low light, is that i have 2 F's, 1 D and i didnt finish my AR or my yb page and im really messed up.

lesson learned, dont be sad and dont let people take over you. So like, i keep over thinkking with things, and im creating problems in my head that dosent even have to be there or shouldnt matter. and im making my own self sad, and before, like last year, i used to be a depressed person, and im hoping i dont get back at that bc i love being happy, so i cant. like what am i even doing to my self.

im dying!

this was totally not my week, its been none of my weeks these past weeks!! i got hives for the first time this week and like i dont even know, this aint cute, this is nasty af. but i have no idea why got it. i mean i might be stressing, like yearbook, bc i have these 4 freaking pages to finish! Thaaaanks a lot for not asking Mr.Ing if you guys can have your pages back! -.- yeezus. ok whatever, past is past. Atleast they took pictures for me. Another thing im stressing about is math, i mean its pretty much my fault for not doing the work, but its also my fault for being stupid and not having the knowledge to know any math, call me stupid. Probably more things, but if its stress, then thats what caused this. Maybe its the weather, i have no idea. Anyway, im really slacking in all of my classes, bc laziness and laziness. i dont know whats up with me, i was being a total  bitch this whole week! so track started and i love it!(x on the first day after track, i went to subway and ordered a sandwhich and salad, and holy cactus, you wouldnt believe how fast i even ate the salad, like wwwww0w. and then i got fudging hives, but i had hives since wednesday, so it cant be subwayyy (: ya ya. OOOOO, then for english we took our HSA and i got 325, oh yaaas hahahaha, happyyyy khrizzzzz. y u lie.

Highlight for this week is starting track for sure. I mean at first i was dying but i was pumped up after haha, i actually really love running its just im a lazy person hehe. We did, alot of running and on the first day my legs didnt hurt as much, but damn, yesterday after practice killed me, it was so hard for me to even sit down, and my legs were cramping and all that gross stuff! Well we did some sprinting yesterday towards the end of practice and it was so bomb!(x i felt good sprinting, hahaha. low light is having these ugly azz hives, yesterday was nasty, i had it all over my body, like on my face, my legs, my stomach, my back my neck, my arms, and even my hands! god sooo gross ;( i kept yelling im dying bc i was dying with these hives, like why do they even exist.

lesson learned, close the gate. LOL, so in track we were doing stretches and theres this stretch where we open the gate, and then we close them after, so i supposedly didnt close the gate so then my hip/butt/thigh hurt so frickin much! SO CLOSE DA GATE.

Off track x

hiyaaa bloggers! well this week was awful. im sick again! ;( i hate being sick dude. it sucks even more because i was absent on thursday, i really cant afford being absent because ive been losing track in my classes so idk man. i ve been so out of it lately. well theres a lot of negative things i can talk about in this blog that happened to me this week, but ill try find something positive to tell you guys about. Well uhm, i finished AR?(x lol, it was soo last minute. i feel bad tho bc i made mr ing stay afterschool just for me to finish even tho he had basketball practice. OH, okay so in the beginning of the week i was kinda messed up, and towards the end of the week things just got so much better so yeaaah. i really dont know what other positive things that happened. So, ill just tell you the bad things hahahahaa, well im getting off track with math. I mean, i totally understand the lessons, their kinda easy now its just im super lazy, and stuff lol. Im also getting off track with social studies, like i was absent and in social studies and math its really important not to miss class bc its hard to get back on track in those classes. even in PE, i been missing out my odd periods the most when my odd periods are really important LOL. Another sad thing about my life, is that ive been losing a lot of important people to me, i have this talent where im really good at losing friends so i guess ive been using that talent a lot, ahahhaa. whatever i guess. like i said, im totally out of it.

im so #over it
HAHHA
(inside joke with mr ing and laila and korey)

my highlight of the week, nothing really interesting happened this week, i mean i guess i could say fixing my relationship with mr.ing is a highlight, we gotten pretty close so thats good. hmm, i really have no highlights. sorry guys. low light of this week was getting sick, i really hate being sick. this weather is killing me, in period 4 & 6 i cough like the fricking loads, and i feel bad bc i bother everyone in class. i been feeling like a bother to everyone lately, idk why. stupid thoughts, darn.

lesson learned, dont bring up peoples past. soo, the other day i got into this huge argument with this person who means a lot to me because i brought up his past, and it was a huge mistake. i mean, i hate when people bring up mine, i shouldve thought about how he felt too, im sure everyone dosent wanna be reminded of their past soo ugh. were good now tho, i guess.