Half A Semester Down!

So as it comes to an ending of 1st Quarter, i think i can finally say that im proud of myself. This quarter i really improved by keeping up with school, especially with my grades. It a real big improvement compared to last year. But chyah.

I actually cant wait for this school year to end, im looking forward going into highschool. Except leaving Leadership, i dont know how i can keep my grades up without it. Leadership is really a good place to learn, it all depends if you want to learn. I guess comparing myself to last year, i didnt take the opportunity to learn in this class. I didnt realize what was given to me. This quarter i showed how much i cared about leadership. Out of all these days, i didnt show up for work, and it was awful. Ugh, its those things where you do good things, and people will remember it for a while, when you do something bad oooh gurl, everyone will remember it. Also ISA, i didnt show up for the first day because i didnt see my name on  the board to work. But what i shouldve done was still go on the field and help out the rest. I really regret not going out there. Other than that, i showed up all the other 5 Days. Im still tryna get used to leadership again though. Im so afraid of taking chances in this class only because i dont want to make a mistake and just ruin it for me. Im just scared of getting back to what i was before.

Everyone in this class is different from the class last year, last year everyone was just so close. But this year, it seems everyone has their own groups. I mean, there are times we actually do hang out together. 7th Graders, i find most of them pretty shy. The 8th graders are fine(x aha, i mean one just dosent want to try anymore. I guess i know how she feels because ive been in that kind of position, but its not that hard. She just chose to give up purposely when Mr.Ing is giving out so many chances to let her fix it. Beach Clean Up? She didnt show up yet shes the one who needed to be there the most. It's sad that she dosent want to try anymore because giving up is a disappointing feeling. I guess Leadership just wasnt something she was suppose to be in, but shes in it anyway and she dosent want to learn in this class. Sucks for her, missing out everything she could learn to help her out. Instead, rejecting everything to stay as what she is now. Im glad that i chose to come back to fix things between me & Mr.Ing. Im also glad that Mr.Ing gave me this chance to be in this class again. This time, im taking things serious and actually trying to learn just so i could be successful growing up (: hopefully i dont drop in 2nd quarter, or the next semester.

Speaking of 2nd quarter, im proud Mr.Ing has grown SOME trust on me, well as of what i think. Mr.Ing let me be in charge of November 8, which is ISA Softball, and Basketball im pretty sure. Im proud because i havent been in charge of something before, and its amazing that he trusts me with this kind of event. This is actually a big event. I just hope i could make sure i have good grades by then and not disappoint anyone before this event. I cant be sure that im going to have a chance to be in this event because theres a 75% chance i cant go to the retreat anymore. I recently had an F in english for no apparent reason. I had an F because of a notebook that wasnt checked yet. But idk, not going to the retreat will mess me up, because they would be planning out for the next quarters, and then theres the ones who couldnt get to go. If they talk about next quarter and November 8 then that sucks for me cause i cant plan with them on the day i get to be in charge of. Im pretty sure im not gonna be able to be in charge of that anymore because of what my grades might come out to be when the quarter starts.

I love the relationships ive built with the people in the class. Me & Laila got to catch up on alot of things because of the distance between us when i was in waipahu, but now i get to see her everyday again. Mackenzie, well things havent really changed. We still have talks like before. Alesia, eh were sort of close. I would say we were closer in elementary than now. Petriese, my daughter(x whale, ive been close with Petriese since elementary anyway, but being in the same period let us get comfortable with eachother. Roxaaay, having Roxi as my group leader is good because i know i could count on her since shes probably the most responsible group leader out of all the others. Korey, i knew Korey since elementary too(x but we've gotten really close this year, hanging out afterschool is probably what brings us close. But during the summer was probably the start of when we hung out alot more often. Daisy, shes the same with macky also(x we still act like how everything was before, having normal conversations and stuff. Aleesha, whale we grew up alot because back in elementary we had gotten into fights all the time. But now, we could have conversations that dont lead into anything, some convos are funny too. Sheila, its actually hard for me to get close with Sheila(x idk, but having her in the same period will get us closer. Kevin, i was always close with Kevin(x aha, Kevin is just Kevin and him not changing is good because i like Kevin the way he is now, the only difference is seen with Kevin was how confident he has gotten. Next, is Jahlyssa. Me & Jah got close over the summer, but im sure we talked in elementary before also. Next is April, me & April arent that close yet but shes really smart and sitting by Jah & April this upcoming quarter im sure we are gonna start getting closer. Cheana, shes just so jumpy and happy all the time(x thats what i love about Cheana. Then theres Jez, Jez is a chill 7th grader, and we got close from summer alsoooo. Jayde, i barely talk to Jayde but she seems really nice and getting to know her would be nice ~ And then Haley, i guess you could say we got close(x probably from cross country. Maliah, shes also from elementary(x but we arent that close either. And Asia,
Me & Asia arent that close compared to last year. But for everyone im not close with from this quarter i hope i could build up a relationship with them.

So i guess this was how my 1st Quarter like. I hope everyone else enjoyed their first quarter(x

Transformation(extra blog)

This blog will be about my transformation of a horrible students as i was last year and the great example as i am so far this year

So, first off im gonna explain some things that was wrong with me last year. Last year, i always had late blogs, i came to work late, sometimes i dont even show up, my grades were low, like C's D's & F's. I dont know, last year i was just that student who didnt really care about leadership. I didn't help out as much last year too. I always brought drama into leadership and i was just way out of it. Last year, i was more of someone who was just looking for the fun. Not realizing what leadership was trying to teach me, and how much Mr.Ing TRIED helping me. Im pretty sure i was okay during the first quarter but when second quarter started thats when everything started dropping, Mr.Ing started losing trust in  me i guess, he didnt talk to me, not much people talked to me in leadership most of the time when this happened, one day we had a meeting for the people who could try fixing their problems but as the stupid person i am i decided "eh whatever " so i didnt go, and ooooo gurl, when lunc ended my group leader Errlyn had a talk and gahh, it was just the worst. I had my cubby taken away, and before that my desk and chair got taken away. I had my own table in the front of the class where i couldnt really get to talk with anyone, i always just left out. While everyone is working, i cant because my vest was taken away, while everyone got to participate in activites i couldnt because i basically wasnt a leadership student, i was just part of that class.

This year was a total upgrade(x im the opposite of everything i am this year. This year, i have on time blogs, most of the time i come to work early, my grades are good as in only A's & B's. I care about leadership alot more than last year, i've been more of a help, i like to volunteer to help alot actually, i barely bring in drama into leadership and now i take leadership more serious than last year! Im really surprised of the change i've made from last year to now, knowing that ive been accepted into leadership for another chance was the best feeling and i just knew i couldnt screw that up, i think one thing keeping me up was when me and mr ing had a meeting and we were talking about how if he accepts me the least thing he wouldnt want to say is that he regrets accepting me. And i dont want him to regret accepting me. Thats probably one thing boosting me up. because of how i changed i think Mr.Ing is growing some trust on me, the first time i realized he trusted me was when he told me i get be in charge of an even coming soon that im very excited for.
I honestly dont know what made me change to the way i am. I guess its just knowing i have a second chance i dont want to ruin anything for me, i dont wannt blow up this chance lol. It's really hard to explain because i dont myself why i even changed yeno.

I joined Leadership again because i wasnt satisfied with what happened last year, i mean i just needed to fix something. And leadership is something that is helping me stay on track, like the pressure of keeping up your grades. I wanted another chance to prove to myself and the others that i dont give up that easy, i wanted to prove to myself that i could finish this program. Because last year, one of my weakness was giving up easily, im gonna admit i still give it to this day but i find myself trying again anyway, i hate the feeling of giving up. If i hadnt joined leadership, i wouldve felt guilty walking around campus knowing i gave up on this class, i dont want to be reminded that way. Im glad i had the opportunity be in this class, because its to the people who couldnt get a chance to even be in leadership. Same as to others if youre reading this, dont take leadership for granted, youre lucky to be chosen to get into this class when someone couldve been glad to take your spot, be grateful(x anywayyyy, looking back at last year was a disaster and i never wanna be in that position again, it was the worst feeling and i just hope i could stay on top of this. Like my grades and the relationship built with everyone in the class especially Mr.Ing because this is nothing compared to last year. Gahh, i tried my best to explain. Atleast i tried.

Week 8

Hello Bloggers! (; This week took forever >.< whaleee uhm imma just talk about my periods, so for period 1 i have math, in math were learning about square roots & cube roots, gross stuff like that /.\ ew. HA. ok period 2, we tried to make a choreo for retreat(x but failed anyway. we even got the ukes from the chorus room! Blah its so fun playing uke, Period 3 social studies, im getting worse in that subject, i had an A and dropped down to a low B, ughhh. why. Period 4, im so positive imma get a A for my thinking booklet(x lool, Period 5, Media as usual its loud and boring, everyone is disrespectful and all that. Period 6, eh science. idk about that, i was having an A, i still am but i think its gonna drop -,- a few days ago i was so positive about having principals or honor rolls this quarter, but sadly i know for sure that wont happen. p000p. Wednesday was fun staying afterschool, after Korey finished counting money we went to Taco Bell, then stalked macky to baskin robins but as we were going there she was leaving so we turned around lol, okay uhm then me and korey went back to A101 talking stories with Mr Ing and singing on the uke(x lol we killed mr ing with our singing skills. then for like 3-4 hours of dying whale sounds we set up the mic for ACE program thingy majiggy. Today we just had a beach clean up at Hau Bush, and while me and laila were helping mr ing with some trash, mr ing picked up a dog's skull! its head part only doe! ugh it was so nastyyy. srsly.

Highlight was the beach clean up, this was my highlight because there was alot of bonding between everyone and i got to catch up with Laila on things we havent talked about in a while together. And like it felt good to be helping out the community by cleaning up the beach,  i thought the beach would have been alot or more trashy doe(x like knowing ewa people lol. HAHAHAH. but chyah. ok.

Lesson learned for this week, its bad to hold in grudges. Especially if its towards someone. A month ago i got into a hug fight with one of my bestfriends for something stupid, we havent talked, looked at eachother or anything. We ignored eachother for a long time and just last night we decided to work eveything out. So basically, holding in that grudge with her was the worse, so dont do it guys. idk if that made sense.

Week 7 ☮

Today was such a good day, sorry for the late blog .--. bleh, ok so today was Jez's birthday and i had so much fun!(x lol ok chyah. Sooo, this week went by slow for me -.- Anyway, this week was Welcome Social and that was fun too, for the first shift i wasnt working, and i really didnt have anything to do, so i just sat in front of the cafe talking to Roxi, and i danced alittle but all by myself, cause everyone was too lame to even have fun and boogie woogie! xD hah, ok. Then finally, it was my shift, i worked Balloon Darts which was actually fun for me, except the fact that i was too short for when people threw darts high, i had a hard time reaching for them -.- this one girl was so blind she got it on the roof like da hail gurl calm yo self. And chyah, after that it was surprising how fast we finished cleaning up the cafe, it took us about 20 minutes, i remember last year i think it took us about 45 minutes because alot of us just stood around, but everyone was actually cleaning up and stuff.  After we cleaned up we got to go on the Water Slide for like a few minutes because maybe 3-4 times going down the slide, they had to pick it up already ;( uhm it was a real struggle when trying to put on our clothes and stuff, after everything Korey and I went to Taco Bell for a little and then her dad dropped me off home. When i got home i showered, and finished up my project for english! 

My highlight of this week was Jez's party because for once my mom let me go to a friends party, lol. And idk, i got to bond with someone who i didnt really bond with and stuff. The food was awesome, like w0w. Im so sure i got dark(x pooop. Another highlight was Welcome Social, because even if there wasnt alot of people,it was cute seeing everyone smiling and laughing. My lowlight was coming home from Jez's party, this was a lowlight because me and my mom got into an argument about how the location of the pool was so confusing, ugh the struggle of having a filipino mom(x haa.

Lesson for this week is probably to believe in yourself. For the past few weeks ive been upsetting myself with the grade ive had with math and i just kept thinking about how stupid i am when it comes to math and i will never get an a for that class. But by believing in myself, making sure i knew i could do it, and that i could get an A if i just trusted myself and all i will, i checked webgrader this morning just to find, hard work pays off because i have an A in math now(; cheee! proud of myself. 

Week 6 ▲

Hey Bloggers! This week was a 4 day week again! Okay, let see. So, this week we had intramurals & i apologize for not coming to work, ya ya i know this sorry wont work & it's just my fault but whatever, at least i worked the next half & the day after too. I don't really know, this week was actually really boring, nothing really to be interested about. On Thursday, Mr.Ing had to go to Girl's Basketball & so we had to find Homeroom/Advisory & Leadership period to go to, which sucks cause i usually look forward to Period 2 but this time i didn't. Anyway, after cross country that day me & Mr.Ing had a talk about me going to the retreat. Well mostly about a certain question, there were two question. The first question i rather not talk about, and the second was why do i want to go to the retreat. & stuff like that. It was an interesting talk loll. Omg yesterday was a disaster. For Period 1, i had Mr.Bertrand and we all know Mr.Bertrand is so strict. So yeah, i stayed after class because i wanted to finish my Do Now before i get a bad grade on it, but sadly i guess Mr.Ing passed out papers to those who worked -.- oh what a coincidence!?

My highlight of this week is probably the talk me & Mr.Ing had, this was a highlight for me because it showed that we got to fix up our relationship, because it was pretty messed up last year(x hah, but it was a good bond i guess, and the questions had me thinking hard -.- i dont like to think hard. Another highlight would probably be having another homeroom, i only say this because a few of us got the feeling sort of being like a regular student, like not walking into A101 was really different.

Lesson to learn, be positive about yourself. Im saying this because of the talk me & Mr.Ing had. You have to be positive about yourself because the more negative you are, soon you'll just start to give up, and the negative thoughts you think of yourself, you might actually then start to believe. Now, i haven't really learned from this yet, because im still in the process of trying to change into a more positive person, im the type of person who finds the negative in everything, and i hate it so much. So im trying to change.

Webcamming with Laila & Korey!(x

This isn't my weekly blog(x just a blog about my weekend. So, starting on Saturday afternoon at 1:58 PM, me & korey decided to webcam. During that time were just asking each other questionsfor our youtube channel. After we watched other youtube videos, up until probably 7 or 8, Laila joined in and we were taking all these fun quizzes, showing eachother our screens for what score we got ~then after Laila watched Perks Of Being A Wallflower while me & Korey watched Monsters University(x When Laila's movie finished she left, but me & Korey stayed to have a webcam sleepover. Pretty nuts(x LOL. then legit me & Korey woke up at the same time, but we went back sleep. Woke up around 9 ish, i was watching the movie Penelope, and idk waht Korey was doing, and we watched alittle more videos on youtube, then Laila joined again, she watched more of her movies! Thanks to me & Korey for introducing her to Megashare, lol. Then Korey went off, i stayed on with Laila, for about an 1 hour & a half then Laila left & Korey came, this was around 5 PM already, me & Korey barely talked at that time, we were just on webcam for company ;p then later we started talking again, about random things! Then Laila joined it, but she was also watching movies again, maybe around 9-10 PM, me & Korey started playing Just Dance(x for an hour! just like a workout(x then we cooled off, just talking stories, then we watched the movie The Croods, but i got bored of it since i already watched it, so we just left Laila watching it. Then me & Korey just talked stories, then i knocked out, so i forgot when Korey went to sleep. Now i just woke up, Korey is still sleeping .----. blah, its soon to be 48 hours that we been webcamming, daaamn(x lol but yeah, this is how i spent my weekend, basically webcamming with Korey day & night, and with Laila just at night.

there are more pictures but i cant find them.

Okaayyy, Korey finally woke up & now im getting ready to go over to her house, so we could go swimming(x 

So me & Korey finished swimming, we went to Jamba Juice after and bought chips at the gas station, then we rode back with her scooter & my board.

When i got picked up i went straight on my laptop, and called Korey on oovoo again, and added Laila. Laila couldn't come because she already went somewhere, But yeah, Laila was doing homework, and so was i, Korey was sleeping(x lol, but yeah. And now Laila left again, me & Korey are just on singing some kareoke. 

LOL, she looks constipated ...

Anyway, to finish up this blog, i think were gonna have another webcam sleepover, even though we have school tomorrow, whaale. This is how i spent my 3 day weekend(x Me & Korey is gonna go play questions now! Byeeeee!(;  btw, its been 72 hours we've webcammed(x

Week 5 ✿

I loved this week!(x Alright, so to start off we played flag football for homeroom! & it was so fun. I liked that Period 2 really had a good bond when we played during our period. We got our progress reports too, i had sort of good grades but i had a D for Advisory which was raised to an B!(; Chee! So far, my grade are 4 A's & 4 B's i'm actually really proud of myself with these kind grades, its unbelievable that i'm proud of myself .__. Anyway, we also got our first meeting for this school year, it's actually really early to be having a meeting too! The meeting was about grades, and it was sad because more than half of us were on probation or we were missing assignments in other classes. This week, we also got to film in our classes, which was nice except for Period 4, during English cause Mrs.Rapp didnt want me to record anything! like da hail. I think i had more fun recording during Period 2 though, and after school. I was stupid again to leave my charger at school so i couldn't use up all my battery, i didn't record for about 4 hours after school ;( ugh. Blahhh, anyway friday was the xc meet! omg, i got 7th place for 8th grade(x i'm so proud of myself! ^--^ i thought i would be past 10 doe, suprisingly none of us from Ilima got any place after 20!

My highlight of this week is definitely xc meet, i think this was a highlight because i least expected myself to be in such a good position! It was hard, but i just told myself that i can do it, and i shouldn't give up. And another short highlight is when we were in the bus going back to Ilima, and me & Korey had a good conversation we were both under the seats yeno, scaring people. LOL. Another highlight was today, me and Korey were webcamming at 12AM and we are still webcamming, but this time Laila is with us.Were gonna have a sleepover through webcam. A low light of my week is probably seeing my own best friend cry. Her other best friend made a stupid decision and lied to Laila. It was cool because before Laila found out, i already had an instinct so i was looking outside the door for Laila, then bam i see her turn around started crying, and i stormed out the door just to hug her, everything is serious if you're gonna decide to hurt my best friend. 

Lesson for this week, appreciate the little things. I'm saying this because i realized so many students don't appreciate what us Leadership students do for them, it bothers me so much. Hearing students complain about what kind of music we play. Like i get it if it's a song that really does suck, but if it's actually a good song & you just seem to complain, just no. gtfo. Alot of the students don't even thank us for playing music, if anything maybe we shouldn't play music anymore. 

 Asian Persuasion ✌

LOL what korey.

Roar.

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